Δευτέρα, 9 Ιουλίου 2012

To Blog Or Not?

So, things here have been good and bad. I live at my mom's for more than a month now, and I have to admit it's not that bad. I mean, at first I was freaking out with the idea but, it's not as bad as I thought. I had all these concerns that her dog would bark  in the middle of the night and wake up the baby. Or that they would watch tv loudly all day long and don't let my baby sleep. Or that they would shout all the time and wake baby up. Yes, no sleeping baby is my worst nightmare, as long as it's so hard for him to fall and stay asleep. He almost always sleeps on my breast and that means that I'm the only person who can make him sleep. Only once or twice a month, he will be so exhausted from a walk that he'll fall asleep in the car, bus or someone's lap. Plus he wakes up sooo easily. So, sleeping and staying asleep is like a gift for me.

So, back to the point. Living with my parents, is not nice cause some of those things I mentioned actually happen sometimes. Also, I can't go to the bathroom whenever I want, walk around naked (don't picture that), have a beer whenever I want (my mom thinks you get wasted with one beer), move things around and in general I don't have the freedom I had in my house. The worst thing, it's that for more than a month, we had no internet connection in the house. That's why I haven't posted for such a long time. Fortunately, I have no blog readers yet. Otherwise they would have forgotten me.

Well, ok there are some good things about living with my parents. Like if I had a really bad day and never made it to do the dishes for exaple, someone else will probably do it. Or that if I need someone to keep an eye on my son for a minute, there's almost always somenone available. Or, like the other day that I went to the grocery store, picked fruits an vegetables, paid for them and went back home without the fruits an vegetables. Yeah! It was an extermely hot day, in they middle of the summer, in the middle of the day and I was sweating, the baby wanted some breastmilk and going back there was not going to happen. So, after breastfeeding my son to sleep, I called my dad who went to get my stuff! Well, there is always a good and a bad side!

With all these stuff going on, I've been so long away from blogging and all this complicated situation made me think a lot. At first I thought that we would have internet connection after a week or so and that I would quickly find my rythm and start blogging again...but no. As the days were passing by, negative thoughts began to occupy my mind. I had some serious problems with my man and I thought what's the point to continue with the blog. When we finally got our internet connection back, the first thing I did was read a few blogs I follow. I didn't enter my blog though, until now. As, I was reading and reading the fire lightened. I knew I wanted to do this too.

So, here I am again. It was hard for me to adapt to my new life...but, I'm trying to put a programm and get things going. Unforunately I have problems with my camera, too. So, no photos for now. I'm already trying to fix it, though.

Wow! I can't explain how much relieved I feel right now. This is very big for me cause I used to quit very easily in the past. I love writing and I love working to make this blog nice. I know I have a lot of work to do until I make it look nice and have some good content and that's what I'm going to do!

Δεν υπάρχουν σχόλια:

Δημοσίευση σχολίου

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...